A story of Lord Fancy Feast

This is a blog my boyfriend wrote and He said I can share this:

I am 23, almost 24 years old, and I am fighting depression. Every day, I have to fight the lethargy, the negativity, the urge to give in to my myriad of failures and give up. I fight the intense need to simply try to drink myself into an early grave. I have to put up with constant reminders of everything wrong I've done, simply because I have failed so many things that my every action these days is filled with them. I go to school, and I am reminded that I should have finished two years ago,yet I still have two to go. I look at my girlfriend, and I see the pain I caused her. I look at pictures from my past and I remember all the friends I gained and kept, who treated me like garbage, and the friends I lost who were as close to true compatriots as one can find in this life. I say 'I wish I had stayed in boy scouts' knowing it was my choice to quit. And every minute is a struggle to not break down and cry, and drain a dozen bottles of liquor dry.
But I fight. Because my girlfriend, despite everything, still loves me. Because my education, despite my failures, is not complete. Because I choose to live better, and be better, I fight. I am not depressed. I am not an alcoholic. I do not abuse drugs, or cut myself, or entertain thoughts of suicide. I am not depressed by any of my failures, because I refuse to make them again, and I will live in spite of them.
Thses days, I drink socially, with friends. The only pain is the sting of bb's, or the dull burn of a good exercise. I do not gorge myself with food, but relish every bite. I livein spite of my failures, and I live better because of them.
Others have hard lives, and refuse to bow. I could do no less, knowing they have worse, and none of it self-inflicted.All my failings are just that, self-inflicted. I caused them to happen, with poor judgement or lack of information.
No, the part that depresses me now is I see a fellow, one of my few true companions that I am proud to call friend, making the same mistakes. Heading down a similar path. And there is nothing I can do for him, because I know he will not listen if I tell him forcefully, yet without force the message will never be made. And so I tread lightly, trying to let him know that his mistakes are my own, and to learn from mine, so he does not feel the same sting.
But I am not depressed. Nor will I ever be. And I thank God for that saving grace, and my stubborn nature.
Sorry for the rant, but I needed to get that off my chest. It doesn't make much sense, looking back at it, I rambled too much. But it fits.

Valentine's day

Valentine's day is in a couple of days and I want to wish happy Valentine's day to my friends, my family, and my boyfriend.  Valentine's day is about love, and not just love for that one person that we want to sleep with, or to buy the gifts.  It is about love that you have for the people in your life!  I love my boyfriend very much, but he isn't the only person in my life.  I think people have a negative misleading thought about Valentine's day.  People think that they need to have a boyfriend/girlfriend to spend it with, but they don't.  It is about spending it with the people that you love. 

I have friends that I've known much longer than my boyfriend.  My friends have been there for me when I hit a big bump in the road in my life.  I turn to them when I can't turn to my family or my boyfriend.  My friends help me through school.  My friends help me get through work.  Either helping me get a job by being my reference, or helping me get the job done at work.  Lastly, they help keep me sane and always putting a smile on my face even when I'm feeling down.   I love my friends for everything they have done for me.

I love my family because they are the only people that knows me my entire life.  My family are the ones that taught me my morals and shaped me to the person that I am today.  Without them, I might be a horrible mean person that uses people to get what I want, sleep around with random guys and act like the victim.  Or I could be relying on a man to take care of me.  My family taught me to be independent, that I don't need anyone to take care of me, and push me to do great with my life.

I love my boyfriend.  I love that he can make me smile, he is my best friend, he keeps me grounded when I feel like my world is spiraling out of control.  I'm a control freak and if something isn't going the way I want it to then I freak out and panic.  My boyfriend helps calm me down and makes me relax.  Most importantly he sees beyond my imperfections and still choose to be with me. 

I agree that Valentine's day is commercialized and that love shouldn't be celebrated on one day out of the year (twice if  you count Christmas).  But I think it helps people to put away whatever feelings of hate and to love the people that they have around them.  When I see people complaining about couples on Valentine's day it does bug me.  Because they are too bitter to love the people that they have in their life because they think that it is about having someone to buy gifts for, or receiving gifts. 

At my work, we can't really teach the kids holidays, but we find loop-holes in everything, so all is good!  But around Valentine's day we do the hearts, the Valentine's day colors, but we also talk about friendship and the different types of love we have for each other. 


Word of advice:

Valentine's day is more than love for a person that is your significant other, but for the other people in your life!  It isn't a commercial holiday for couples to buy stuff, but a day to stop and be glad for the rest of the awesome people in our lives (Friends and family).  We need to change the way we look at this holiday!

I don't get it?

I don't get it?  There are two girls that are "best friends".   One of the girls is one of thoes that needs to have a boyfriend, or her life is not worth living.  she made a post of a qoute saying that love is kind, love is....so on and so on.....She tags a few friends and her boyfriend.  On of the girls that she tag I guess took it the  wrong way.

The girl that was tagged starts to tell her off about that it was stupid, a wast of her time, and that she had been in a relationship for a year.  Also accusing her of being a "kiss ass".  The girl that made the post tells the other girl that the post wasn't just about love and relationships, but also friendship.

I don't understand anymore.....I agree that love should be in person and I can understand why anyone could be upset by it.   But I also understand that she was trying to share on her insight.

Another use to be friends is two people that I work with.  K liked this one guy and went out, but nothing more than friends.  He found out that K is friends with this girl, T.  T and this guy has been friends since jr. high.  They started talking more and soon started dating.  K was upset abd hurt, and I get it.   But now she is being very childish and giving dirty looks to T.

Word of advice:  Communication is key to any relationship...romantically or friendship....