Restlessly Still

Restlessly Still

Monday, January 23, 2012

Relationship Status

I saw someone post a picture that states "Single is not a status.  It's a word that best describes a person who is strong enough to live and enjoy life without depending on others."  I'm not going to lie that it made me offended.  I'm in a relationship with a wonderful person and I'm very happy with him!  I'm not saying everyone needs to find someone and get in a relationship now, but I feel like it is saying that I need my boyfriend to be happy and enjoy life.  Not everyone wants to be in a relationship, or ready to be in one.

Those who are single aren't losers...they just haven't found the right person for them, or that they are not the types that want to have a relationship.  But they aren't better people than the ones that are in a relationship because they can live life without "depending" on others.  Plus that isn't true...what about friends and family?  I think people tend to rely on them as well as a lover if they had one.  Relationships aren't for everyone...and they are people who are in a relationship that shouldn't really be in one for their own good.

Those who are in a relationships aren't better than those who aren't in one.   Not everyone that is in a relationship isn't some weak person that can't be happy without having a boyfriend/girlfriend.  Yes, I will agree that they are people out there that are in relationships, or want one because they aren't happy with who they are.   Like I said before, I have a boyfriend that I'm very happy with...but it isn't the end all be all.  I know that I will be okay without having him next to me 24/7.  And if we did break up...I know that I will be okay and that life goes on.  Relationships are great, but they aren't everything.  If you can't take care of yourself then how do you expect to take care of another person.

I know a couple that is getting married, but they shouldn't because one the guy is trying to prove something and he is only getting what he thinks is the best he can do, and she is marrying him because she doesn't want die alone and she is cheating on him with many guys.


I guess what I'm saying is that relationships aren't everything and that you need to be happy with yourself.  But I disagree with the quote because it sounds like everyone that is in a relationship needs people to be happy. 

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Jealousy is ugly (a public apology)

These past few days; I've realized that I've been super jealous for something that I shouldn't be.  Last year during the fall my boyfriend is friend with this one girl and I've been super jealous about their time together because I thought that she was trying to get with him.  He told me that there isn't anything going on, but I've been really mean towards him.  I've talked to a couple of people  who knows him and they tell me that there isn't anything to worry about because he loves me and most of the time he gets real aggravated by her and all the drama that she brings.  Also that if she did had a thing for him that it would only last a little while because she has a flavor of the month (meaning that she has so many crushes every other week). But I still was angry with him and I didn't trust him, and it is wrong of me to be like that because he was open about it and didn't lie about it.

I'm sorry to my boyfriend for being upset with you and accusing you for things without hearing out the whole story.  If this girl did had a crush on you there wouldn't been anything for you to do...I didn't trust you and it was wrong.

I'm sorry to this girl for accusing you for things that I didn't know much about.  I was uncomfortable on how close you were with my boyfriend.  But it gave me no right for taking out my insecurities out on you.  I should get to know the person you are and not just listen to what people think of you.

You don't have to forgive me, but I want to let you know that I'm truly sorry.  It is hard for me to to admit that I was wrong...but I was.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Making the best of it

So far 2012 haven't been started off on a good start.  One of my best friends' cousin's lost their father in law to an accident.  Then my boyfriend isn't allowed back to school for a year, and his parents are being...blah... 2012 doesn't seem to be a good year, but it's life and we need to move on.  We learn from the bad things that happen and try to make them better.

Example: My boyfriend is going to take that year off to figure his life out.  He is trying to find a job and I hope he finds something good!  He is taking a few classes at CoC that he needs and save up until he can go back to Humboldt.  So I'm going to do my best to support him and help him along the way.

As long as we have each other and a few good friends that it will make things a little easier.  I'm sad that things are happening the way they are, but I'm going to try to make things work and so is my boyfriend.

Life is hard and sometimes it throws us hard balls, but it is what we do that will make or break us.  No one said it isn't going to easy, but that it will be worth it at the end.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

2012

We are no longer in 2011 and now on to 2012!  You know that this mean?  New year goals that usually never happen!  But this year I am making reasonable goals for myself!


I'm going to lose 5 to 15 pounds before the end of the year!  And I'm taking a dance class at CoC this spring, I think it will help me reach my goal.  This class will teach me the basics to ballet, modern, and jazz dancing.

Another goal is to get my master teacher permit.  I got my degree last spring in ECE, but I'm shy of 8 units on getting my permit.  So this spring I'm taking 3 classes and apply for my master teacher stuff at the end of the semester!  I'm excited =)

I'm going to be more patience with everyone around me, mainly with my boyfriend.  I'm going to try not to jump the gun without hearing the full story!

The end or not, I'm making 2012 a good year!