Restlessly Still

Restlessly Still

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

The size of inner beauty

This has been bugging me for awhile, so I am making a post about weight issues:

I can easily say that I am not the skinniest person, nor am I the fattest!  I am proud to see girls with curves are being comfortable in their skin, but to what price?

I have seen Facebook post saying that a curvy Gil is more beautiful than a skinny girl.  I am not going to lie that it doesn't bother me because it does!

Like curvy girls, most skinny girls are born like it and genetics messes with them as well.  We think skinny girls are mean, stuck up, so on and so on.  We are say everyone is beautiful and that means everyone that has a good heart!

And for the girls that starve themselves or throwing up their food in a fear that they may get fat, they have a psychological problem that they need help!


I know nice skinny girls and bitchy curvy girls, and the other way around!  It is the person, not the way they look!


Word of advice:
Support inner beauty, not the size of the person.
Don't put anyone down because they are curvy, chubby, skinny.  Because that is going to cause more problems.


Monday, January 6, 2014

Lesson from Mike

Sorry that I haven't been writing, but it has been a crazy time since my last blog for anyone that still reads it.  The past couple of days I have been think about my ex, Michael Galetti.  I decided to make a post about him.

Mike was my first real boyfriend, or at least in my mind he was.  He took me on one date and I really had a good time.  Later he wanted it to be physical.  At first I stood my ground and told him that I was not ready for that kind of relationship.  He decided to call things off (before Valentines day of course).  I started to regret my decision and try to get him back and I was willing to take the relationship to where he wants it to be.  After awhile he gives me a second chance (lucky me).  So the rest of this so-called relationship was just that, sex and me paying everything just to have some sort of real relationship.   After awhile he decides that he can't handle it and ingores me for a good month.  I assumed he is cheating on me and send him a message stating that.  He finally replies back the whole "we are over","it's me, not you" and so on and so on...

I tried to be friend him and he would accept, but I would push my luck and hope he might give me a chance and he leaves again.  He meets a new girl and I would be friend her in hopes that I can see how he is doing.  In the process two of his friend will message me threatening.  I realized that he is not worth it anymore and more and likely he got them to do it.

I moved on change my out look on life and what I wanted out a guy, the relationship, and what I wanted out of myself.  I focus on school, so I can leave Walmart.  I did all that and I do feel better about myself.  I am at the place that I love working at.  I got there on my own without the help of Mike, or anyone, but the support of the people that matter.  I found myself in a relationship with a guy I am very happy with and treats me the way that I deserve to be treated. I am now happy with the direction that my life is heading.

At the time that I was with him,  in my head I did love him.  Looking back at it now, it wasn't love.  He used me for my body, my money, and my emotions.  We were never met to be and I am okay with this fact.  Our paths may or may not cross, and once again I am okay with this.

Word of Advice:
Usually the relationship doesn't last and does suck, but it is okay to get through and move on because the chances are that they are living their life just fine without you.  Don't cry over your Michael Galetti because your Christopher Baker might be around the corner.