Sexuality

A few weeks ago I have seen a few post about transgender and transexuals.  One was an article about babies born as both sex and the parents picking one gender to make it less awkward.  Another the was a post of a person refusing to acknowledge a person's identity that they choose to be than the one they were born with.  Of course I am cool with transgenders/transexuals, but I stopped to think what it if it happened to someone I know and is close to me.

If one of my family members decided to change their gender would be hard to get use to, but I am pretty positive that I would be okay and I will supportive.  Then I started to think what if my boyfriend decided that he wanted to be a woman and would I still be with him.

At first I wouldn't be because I identify myself being straight.  Then I thought more about it because I believe in soul mates and that their is that one person for everyone.  I realized that I would be with him because I fell in love with the person that makes me smile, feel wonderful about myself.

I asked my boyfriend the same question and at first he wasn't sure that he could be with me if I were to become a man.  The more we talked it out he realized that he would love me and be with me no matter what.

At first I did only believed in only straight, gay, or bi.  I didn't believe people claiming being pansexual and what not.  I thought it was people wanting to be a special snowflake and want to be called something different than bisexual, or they are straight and wanting attention.  But after having this conversation with my boyfriend, I realized that I love my boyfriend as a person and not because he has a certain body part.  That I would love him no matter what gender he choose to be and he is the same way.

Word of advice:
Some times we have the mantility of it would never happen to me.  Some times we need to step back and put ourselves in that situation to truly understand others.

Valentines day vs. Acknowledging all relationships

Because Valentines day is next Friday and I have put some thought on this subject, I feel this is rather appropriate to share.

Last year I made a post about how people who are in non relationships need to stop whining about how lonely and blaming the ones that are in relationships.  Also people that are in relationships need to cool it on how your relationship is better than others, especially after being in a relationship for 3 days.

This post is sparked after sharing ideas with my coworkers for next week activities.  At my center, we cannot do holidays, but on valentines day we talk about all forms of relationships with everyone in their lives.  This made me think that we shouldn't just focus on our boyfriend\girlfriend, but as well as our parents, grandparents, siblings, other family members, friends, and coworkers. 

I guess what I am trying to say is that we do have other relationships with other people that help us move forward.  We should be appreciative of all people in our lives.  Having a significant other is nice, but not the end all be all.  Disney is making that move by having their movies like Frozen and Brave.

Word of advice:
In a relationships or not, we need to look at the other people in our life that help shape us to who we are today.

The size of inner beauty

This has been bugging me for awhile, so I am making a post about weight issues:

I can easily say that I am not the skinniest person, nor am I the fattest!  I am proud to see girls with curves are being comfortable in their skin, but to what price?

I have seen Facebook post saying that a curvy Gil is more beautiful than a skinny girl.  I am not going to lie that it doesn't bother me because it does!

Like curvy girls, most skinny girls are born like it and genetics messes with them as well.  We think skinny girls are mean, stuck up, so on and so on.  We are say everyone is beautiful and that means everyone that has a good heart!

And for the girls that starve themselves or throwing up their food in a fear that they may get fat, they have a psychological problem that they need help!


I know nice skinny girls and bitchy curvy girls, and the other way around!  It is the person, not the way they look!


Word of advice:
Support inner beauty, not the size of the person.
Don't put anyone down because they are curvy, chubby, skinny.  Because that is going to cause more problems.

Lesson from Mike

Sorry that I haven't been writing, but it has been a crazy time since my last blog for anyone that still reads it.  The past couple of days I have been think about my ex, Michael Galetti.  I decided to make a post about him.

Mike was my first real boyfriend, or at least in my mind he was.  He took me on one date and I really had a good time.  Later he wanted it to be physical.  At first I stood my ground and told him that I was not ready for that kind of relationship.  He decided to call things off (before Valentines day of course).  I started to regret my decision and try to get him back and I was willing to take the relationship to where he wants it to be.  After awhile he gives me a second chance (lucky me).  So the rest of this so-called relationship was just that, sex and me paying everything just to have some sort of real relationship.   After awhile he decides that he can't handle it and ingores me for a good month.  I assumed he is cheating on me and send him a message stating that.  He finally replies back the whole "we are over","it's me, not you" and so on and so on...

I tried to be friend him and he would accept, but I would push my luck and hope he might give me a chance and he leaves again.  He meets a new girl and I would be friend her in hopes that I can see how he is doing.  In the process two of his friend will message me threatening.  I realized that he is not worth it anymore and more and likely he got them to do it.

I moved on change my out look on life and what I wanted out a guy, the relationship, and what I wanted out of myself.  I focus on school, so I can leave Walmart.  I did all that and I do feel better about myself.  I am at the place that I love working at.  I got there on my own without the help of Mike, or anyone, but the support of the people that matter.  I found myself in a relationship with a guy I am very happy with and treats me the way that I deserve to be treated. I am now happy with the direction that my life is heading.

At the time that I was with him,  in my head I did love him.  Looking back at it now, it wasn't love.  He used me for my body, my money, and my emotions.  We were never met to be and I am okay with this fact.  Our paths may or may not cross, and once again I am okay with this.

Word of Advice:
Usually the relationship doesn't last and does suck, but it is okay to get through and move on because the chances are that they are living their life just fine without you.  Don't cry over your Michael Galetti because your Christopher Baker might be around the corner.

Facebook Friends

Two post ago, I wrote about the friends on facebook and that I met each person in person at least once in my life time.  Everyone knows how many friends on facebook or myspace (if anyone still uses it) even though one claims that they don't know or care that they have 523 friends.  But when one person decides that they want nothing to do with you and they delete you from their friends list.  When you log on to your social media site and you see the number of friends went down my one, so that 523 is now a 522, you know that someone got rid of you.

Most people think it is silly to be upset by this, but people are upset by this.  A few times I meet a new person and be friends them and I add them to the facebook friends list, the another one leaves.  And I have been the one to delete people off the friends list.  I can tell you from both points of view:

The one that has been deleted:
At first you start to wonder who was the one that deleted you.  Even though you may never have interacted with this person, you still feel hurt that they just up and vanish with out talking you.  But also keep in mind that: Did I talk to this person? Do I even know this person? 
But I think what hurts the most is that we like to know why.  We want to know why are you taking us off, is it something we did, did we grow apart?  We like closure when things come to an end.

The one that did the deleting:
When you delete someone from a friends list, it is usually that you either grown apart with them, they did something to really make you mad, or do I even know this person?  When we delete someone, we don't really think much on that it could effect that person we took off the list.  Even when their is logical reasons of why. We also don't think of bring closure to ending a "friendship" because it does make it harder for ending it.  It really depends on the reason why one would delete another person.

Today I found that a person took me off their friends list and it did suck a little because I was wondering who took me off and why they did it.  But then I realize the friends that I do talk to and that really do hang out with is still their, so it doesn't matter because it was probably a person that really don't communicate with.  If I knew who it was, I would be wondering why do I have them on facebook.  
 


Word of Advice:
I'm not going to lie, it does suck when people don't want to be friends with you.  Even though we are adults and we shouldn't be effected by this, but we cannot help it.  It is how we handle the situation

Lab Students Fall of 2013

As most of you that do follow my blog know that I work at a daycare center at the community college.  When people take ECE classes, they can take ECE Lab and they can observe child, teachers, and parent interactions in a classroom setting.  Most of the lab students that we had in my room in the pass were really nice and helpful and actually interacting with the children.  Of course there was a few lab students that were to scared to get their expensive clothes painted on, but all of them were really sweet.  This year is my first year after in three years that I'm in the afternoons again.  I don't get to meet most of the lab students that help out in the classroom. 

When I walk in to my room early to start setting up for the afternoon, every lab student their gives me this death glare.  They would give me a look of "why are you doing hear and why are you hugging my kids"  Even when the master teacher would tell them that I am the lead afternoon teacher and that I have worked with majority of the kids last year; because I did worked in the mornings  before this promotion.  A few of the lab students are sweet, but they get wrapped up with a child and you can tell that they already have a favorite.  This also leads with them just working with that child and doing things that we would not do at work.  I told my master teacher that and she just kept giving me the dirtiest look anyone could give me because I told the master teacher what she was doing. A few of them I will try to talk to and be friendly, but will give this answer with an attitude.  

I don't know what is up with lab students this semester, but they need to stop acting like that they are running the class room and treat actual teachers like they are scum of the planet. 

Word of Advice:
Be respectful to everyone in the building because it isn't just classroom and children stuff that you are learning, it is also teaching you how to work with a staff

From one end of California to another-the people in between

Back of the days of myspace and when facebook started out, everyone tried to be friends with many people as one can.  Even though a lot of people have never met most of their friends they had on their friends list, the goal was to break at least 500.  I realized that now I have 305 friends on facebook, but am I bragging about it??? No!

I went through all of my friends list and wondering: Do I even know half of these people?  The people that I have on here are ones that I went to school with, my family that I don't get to see, the ones that I work with (both from Wal-mart and the center), people that I met at COC,  the ones that I met through Chris up at Humboldt, and a couple that I met at a concert.  I know and met all 305 people and I can say that I have met each person at least once in person. 

Do I talk to everyone?  Of course not!  The only ones that I do talk to are my close friends and the people that I currently work with.  One would say "Why don't you just delete the other people if you don't talk to them at all?"  The reason is that I use to know these people and it is nice to see how they are doing and how their lives are playing for them.  It is nice to know that they are safe,having a good life.

What am I trying to get at?
I guess it is interesting on how many people you meet, how you met them, and what kind of memory you hold for them