Facebook Friends

Two post ago, I wrote about the friends on facebook and that I met each person in person at least once in my life time.  Everyone knows how many friends on facebook or myspace (if anyone still uses it) even though one claims that they don't know or care that they have 523 friends.  But when one person decides that they want nothing to do with you and they delete you from their friends list.  When you log on to your social media site and you see the number of friends went down my one, so that 523 is now a 522, you know that someone got rid of you.

Most people think it is silly to be upset by this, but people are upset by this.  A few times I meet a new person and be friends them and I add them to the facebook friends list, the another one leaves.  And I have been the one to delete people off the friends list.  I can tell you from both points of view:

The one that has been deleted:
At first you start to wonder who was the one that deleted you.  Even though you may never have interacted with this person, you still feel hurt that they just up and vanish with out talking you.  But also keep in mind that: Did I talk to this person? Do I even know this person? 
But I think what hurts the most is that we like to know why.  We want to know why are you taking us off, is it something we did, did we grow apart?  We like closure when things come to an end.

The one that did the deleting:
When you delete someone from a friends list, it is usually that you either grown apart with them, they did something to really make you mad, or do I even know this person?  When we delete someone, we don't really think much on that it could effect that person we took off the list.  Even when their is logical reasons of why. We also don't think of bring closure to ending a "friendship" because it does make it harder for ending it.  It really depends on the reason why one would delete another person.

Today I found that a person took me off their friends list and it did suck a little because I was wondering who took me off and why they did it.  But then I realize the friends that I do talk to and that really do hang out with is still their, so it doesn't matter because it was probably a person that really don't communicate with.  If I knew who it was, I would be wondering why do I have them on facebook.  
 


Word of Advice:
I'm not going to lie, it does suck when people don't want to be friends with you.  Even though we are adults and we shouldn't be effected by this, but we cannot help it.  It is how we handle the situation

Lab Students Fall of 2013

As most of you that do follow my blog know that I work at a daycare center at the community college.  When people take ECE classes, they can take ECE Lab and they can observe child, teachers, and parent interactions in a classroom setting.  Most of the lab students that we had in my room in the pass were really nice and helpful and actually interacting with the children.  Of course there was a few lab students that were to scared to get their expensive clothes painted on, but all of them were really sweet.  This year is my first year after in three years that I'm in the afternoons again.  I don't get to meet most of the lab students that help out in the classroom. 

When I walk in to my room early to start setting up for the afternoon, every lab student their gives me this death glare.  They would give me a look of "why are you doing hear and why are you hugging my kids"  Even when the master teacher would tell them that I am the lead afternoon teacher and that I have worked with majority of the kids last year; because I did worked in the mornings  before this promotion.  A few of the lab students are sweet, but they get wrapped up with a child and you can tell that they already have a favorite.  This also leads with them just working with that child and doing things that we would not do at work.  I told my master teacher that and she just kept giving me the dirtiest look anyone could give me because I told the master teacher what she was doing. A few of them I will try to talk to and be friendly, but will give this answer with an attitude.  

I don't know what is up with lab students this semester, but they need to stop acting like that they are running the class room and treat actual teachers like they are scum of the planet. 

Word of Advice:
Be respectful to everyone in the building because it isn't just classroom and children stuff that you are learning, it is also teaching you how to work with a staff

From one end of California to another-the people in between

Back of the days of myspace and when facebook started out, everyone tried to be friends with many people as one can.  Even though a lot of people have never met most of their friends they had on their friends list, the goal was to break at least 500.  I realized that now I have 305 friends on facebook, but am I bragging about it??? No!

I went through all of my friends list and wondering: Do I even know half of these people?  The people that I have on here are ones that I went to school with, my family that I don't get to see, the ones that I work with (both from Wal-mart and the center), people that I met at COC,  the ones that I met through Chris up at Humboldt, and a couple that I met at a concert.  I know and met all 305 people and I can say that I have met each person at least once in person. 

Do I talk to everyone?  Of course not!  The only ones that I do talk to are my close friends and the people that I currently work with.  One would say "Why don't you just delete the other people if you don't talk to them at all?"  The reason is that I use to know these people and it is nice to see how they are doing and how their lives are playing for them.  It is nice to know that they are safe,having a good life.

What am I trying to get at?
I guess it is interesting on how many people you meet, how you met them, and what kind of memory you hold for them

A beautiful sadness

Overview:
This is a clip from South Park when Stan's heart was broken when Wendy broke up with him and she starts seeing Token.  Stan's friends try to make him feel better by taking to him what is basically a Hooters.  Stan is still heartbroken over Wendy.  Stan starts hanging out with the goth kids and because just a whinny brat because it didn't work out with one Wendy.  The girls that work at this restaurant flirts with the boys and Butters falls in love with one of the girls, and he doesn't realize that she was doing that so he would tip more money.  Butters buys her gifts and starts stalking her.  Towards the end, Butters realized that the girl he was stalking was not his girlfriend and that she really didn't like him.  He was hurt and he was left crying at the side of the road in the rain.  Then Stan and the other goth kids finds Butters and they try to get him to join with the group. Butters turns them down because he loves life to be in a group that was always complaining and hating life.  Stan was confused by this because Butters got his heart ripped out.  Butters simply explains that even though he is sad about the break up, but that still makes him happy because that there was something that made him so happy at one point and when it was taken away that it made him sad about it.  Butters continues that with that going on that it makes him feel alive, that it makes him feel human.  It is what he calls a beautiful sadness.


Why is it worth sharing?
I thought about how I feel when I am sad and at the moment of sadness that I just want it to go away and I don't care how. But when I see this picture above, it makes since what Butters meant and that I do feel alive because I have all these emotions and I'm able to express them.  I see posts on facebook and hear how people talk about how horrible life is because they are lacking something in their lives (mostly not being able to have a girlfriend/boyfriend) and that they do everything in their power to keep themselves from ever being happy.  And because they are not happy, these people will complain how they are unhappy and that there is nothing that will ever make them happy.  Outsiders will try to help them and cheer them up, and it will work a total of ten minutes and they are back to being depressed.  After reading that picture, it made me realized that we forget that even though we are sad, but that just means that there was something that made us really happy and that we are alive to feel such heartbreak and that we are human. 


Word of Advice:
I would never think that South Park gave a good advice, but they did.  Overall we need to remember that it is okay to feel sad but just know that we will be okay.  We need to work through it and not push everyone who is trying to help us up.

My life in music

I saw this and I wanted to see how my life sound track would be...

How am I feeling today? Masters of the World (Sabaton)
How do my friends see me? The Siren (Nightwish)
What is the story of my life? Stand (Rascal Flatts)
What song describes my mom? Reflection (Mulan)
What song describes my dad? God Love Her (Toby Keith)
What song describes my significant other? Here Without You (3 doors down)
What song describes my ex?  Whoever brings the night (Nightwish)
To describe my grandparents? Return to the Sea (Nightwish)
How is my life going?  Christmas/Sarajevo 12/24 (Trans-siberian Orchestra)
What song will they play at my funeral? Love is a Battlefield (Pat Benatar) *I'm okay with this
How does the world see me? Six (All that Remains)
Will I have a happy life? Wizards in Winter (TSO)
What do my friends really think of me? Your Hand in Mine (Explosions in the Sky)
What is some good advice for me? Ticket to Heaven (3 Doors Down)
How will i be remembered? Stray Cat Strut (Stray Cat Strut)
What is my current theme song? Through the Fire and Flames (Dragonforce) *OH DEAR GOD MY FINGERS*

LIFE STORY:
Opening Credits: Touch the Sky (Brave)
Waking Up: Eden (Sarah Brightman)
First Day At School: Steal Away (Celtic Thunder)
Falling In Love: Enter Sandman (Metallica)
Fight Song: Don't Stop Me Now (Queen) *I'm laughing at this*
Breaking Up: Can't get my head around you (Offspring)
Prom: Be Like That (3 doors down)
Life's OK:  Elvenpath (Nightwish)
Mental Breakdown: Stargazers (Nightwish)
Driving: The Riddler (Nightwish)
Flashback: Sahara (Nightwish)
Getting Back Together: I'm Not Over (Carolina Burning)
Wedding: Circle of Life (Lion King)
Birth of Child: Deliver Me (Sarah Brightman) BWHAHAHAHAHA
Final Battle: Last of the Wilds (Nightwish)
Death Scene: Lappin, Part 2: Witchdrums (Nightwish)
Funeral Song: Celtic Carol (Lindsey Striling)
End Credits:Stalingrad  (Sabaton)

Leadership

It has been one month since I started back to work after being off for three months during summer vacation.  I have been working at the center for five years and started my first year as a lead teacher in the afternoons.  I co-teach with another teacher in the afternoons, so there is four of us total that work together; two lead teachers and two assistant teachers.  We seem to have a system to make the our classroom run smooth and it is working for us so far.  

Last Friday, one of the assistant teacher brought up a concern with another assistant teacher was doing.  I could have easily went to that teacher and talk to her about the concerns that were brought up.  But I figure that we would have a meeting, so no one would feel attack.  I talk to my Master Teacher about it and she agree that would have been the best thing to do.

Today we had our meeting once we got the children down for nap.  We talked about how that we need to focus on all the children and not just the ones that we favor.  We also talked about snack and that once it is done, it is done.  We discuss what we can do for a solution for the ones that wait last minute for snack.

I realized that after this meeting that I had with my staff, that I'm not just watching and observing with child, but also with adults.  I am doing everything as a master teacher with a few exceptions.  I didn't realize how much more responsibility placed on me.  In the past of everyday that I worked.  I always try to go for a supervisor position.  Back Wal-mart, I tried to be one because I was already doing the work of one, so might as well get the pay of one.  Because of the comment that it was "not woman's work" and not working with my school scheduled, so I left.

When I started working at the daycare center five years ago, I just focus on working with children.  I grew to wanting to plan activities for a classroom, and that lead to taking on more responsibilities.  This past summer I was interviewed for the master teacher position, but did not get it.  I'm glad that I didn't because the one that they did pick is a good choice.  But I did not walk away empty handed, and I was given the lead.  I took this opportunity and I'm running with it.

If I look back a few years ago when I was in high school, I can easily can say that I had nothing that makes a good leader.  When I graduated, I learn more about myself and that I realized that I was never a follower and how controlling I really am.  Taking on this position as an afternoon lead is bring new challenges that I need to help me grow more.  It also helps me work on excellent leadership skills and how to work with other adults.


Word of Advice:
 Sometimes new challenges can be overwhelming and rewarding at the same time!

What is a price of a mile?

And as the the night falls the general calls
And the battle carries on and on
What is the purpose of it all?
What’s the price of a mile?

Thousands of feet march to the beat
It’s an army on the march
Long way from home
Paying the price in young mens lives

12 years later as of tomorrow and poor men and women lying their lives to protect ours.  It is time to come home

Word of Advice:

What is a price of a mile?