Light Weights

Skinny girls should NOT complain about how "fat" they are.  Especially around other girls that aren't that lucky to be thin.  It is annoying to hear them whining about that they are fat when they are clearly not.  Its annoying on 3 different levels.  1) They are whining about something that isn't a problem...and I'm not a fan of whining.  2) They say they have a problem (though they do not) and yet they don't do anything to fix it. 3) If they do something, its more and likely the unsafe thing like become anorexic or bulimic, and they kill themselves to "fix" their problem.

About 4 years ago, I use to work at Walmart and met some new friends as I was working.  This one girl I met had so many issues about herself.  She was about 5'5-5'7 and weighed about 90 to 100 pounds.  She was a walking skeleton.  She was very negative about every thing, like the world will end if she doesn't have a boyfriend, and that she thought that she was fat.  I've been friends with her for about 6 months before I had enough of it.  I would buy her lunch and she would only take one or two bites and then go straight to the bathroom and I won't see her for 2 hours.  Then she called me up when I was babysitting for a friend.  She told me that she was taking diet pills...After yelling at her and telling her the truth, I stop be friending her.

I still know a few skinny girls and they also say how they are fat, or that they talk about how much weight they are losing and go on how they don't need to.  It does make me feel bad about me.  I'm a little taller than a lot of girls and I'm a very curvy.  So I start to think that I'm fat because the idea of if they think they are fat, then that makes me morbidly obese.  Though I know that I'm not, but still I can't help to feel that way.  And most these skinny girls don't realize how they are hurting others by just the way they talk.  So skinny girls shouldn't talk about weight issues, unless its trying to gain weight.

All over the place

My mind is all over the place.  I'm not in a bad mood, but I had all these thoughts running around in my head that happened awhile ago.  A few things that happened to me at different times with different people that I just need to let out or I become upset with them and do something that I will not forgive myself for.

It sucks when you try to tell someone something and they don't seem to be listening to you.  It is frustrating because you try to get a point across and then have to repeat yourself a billion times just for some people to get it.  Its even worse when they hear you and they know what you said and mean, and they still do the opposite of what you say.  I work at a daycare and it seems the kids are better listeners than the adults I know.

Its even more frustrating when they don't listen to a warning, like warning them not to jump front of a moving car, and they still do it anyways.  Or a warning about a person who is bad news all over and they still don't listen to the warning.  All you get is you are wrong and it can drive anyone crazy because it might as well say they don't trust you.

I also find it funny that a slutty bitch was dumped by her boyfriend and have to running my for the rescue.  But he can't be an ass to her, nooo...but it is okay to be a real jerk to me...and it is kind of heartbreaking that he can't stand up to anyone, but can be a jerk to me and claim that I'm not caring enough...but can bend backwards for a bitch who is only using his stuff and can give a flying rat's ass about him.  It sucks....

I feel at work that they don't care about me.  They always pass me over and give credit for the people that don't do anything.  But when they need someone to cover then I'm noticed.  Everyone can have day off, but when I request one day off just to rest, then that isn't okay.  It is okay for me to go over hours and get in trouble, but not everyone else.

I'm kind of upset at my best friend.  I'm glad that her and my brother are hanging out and what not.  Because I don't know who I rather have my brother hang out and be good friends than her.  But when it is becoming to a point where she doesn't call you anymore and to call up him and make plans to hang out.  But cancels on you or makes up a reason why she can't hang out with you is not cool.  Its too a point I don't feel like she is my best friend anymore and is becoming my brother's.

Honesty

Lately I have notice that friendships are broken up because of big misunderstandings.  Seeing yesterday's friends turn into today's enemies is really sad.   What is worse is that you let a guy/girl get between you two.  Ever heard of that saying "Boyfriends/Girlfriends come and go, but friends are a life time."  If you have found a really good friend then you should hold on to dear life on to them.   Good friends are hard to find and should be grateful if you do have a really good friend. 

If you find that both of you like the same person then maybe you should go after them.  Or if you like a person and then find out that the person you like, likes your other friend...maybe you should let them go and let them be happy.  You can't help who you fall for, but also understand that if they don't have feelings for you, but they do have for your friend and your friend likes them then they should go out. 

If you find that both of you do like the same person; the two of you need to talk it out and be honest to each other.  It might be a little hurtful now, but it might save a friendship.  Do not say nothing and then get mad about it, or if you knew that you friend likes a person you should go after them behind you friend's back.  That is a low move to play.  The key to a good relationship; either its a friendship or a relationship; is communication.

9/11

It has been 10 years ago on this day when 3,000 innocent souls perished, and a day when America would be changed forever. My own life was affected as I remember seeing the how the events unfolded. Since that day, Many families have lost a few great men and women from the war in Afghanistan. So pray for those lost in 2001 and those who were lost and still fighting in 2011.  For whatever reason you feel we are in this war with Afghanistan, we should support our men and women who are fighting for the rights you have that you take for granted and the beliefs that believe; Even if you think we are there for oil, because we got attacked, or to spread democracy to those who are less fortunate. We will never forget

Life is good

It is not going to be a very long post, but I'm so happy right now that I want to share it with the world.  I love my job, I love my family, I love my friends, and I love my boyfriend! I'm high on life and it is the best feeling ever!!! 

Thank you =)

No one

I'm the one that you cut in fornt of
I'm No one
I'm the one you don't listen to when trying to speak
I'm No one
I'm the one that you think is wrong
I'm No one
I'm the one that gets over looked
I'm No one
I'm the one that gets passed over
I'm No one
I'm the one that is willing to help, but is ignored
I'm No one
I'm the one that will be upset or mad, but you'll tell me I'll get over it
I'm No one
I'm going to be the one to make something of myself
I'm someone
I'm going to go for my goals
I'm someone
I'm going to be successful
I'm someone
I'm going to show you who is wrong
I'm someone

Virus

My computer has caught a virus and it isn't working anymore.  When I turn it on, it will go to the logo page and then it goes to the blank page and it is stuck like that.  A virus tried many times to attack my computer, but Norton's said that it was blocked and that nothing needs to be done....Yeah right....

One of my many good friends is trying very hard to fix it, but sadly from the way he made it sound is that isn't going to work.  I finally told my dad the other day and I'm waiting to hear him scream about money and blahblah....but he was very kind about it.   He said that he has some ideas that might work to fix it.  So my fingers are crossed to have my computer fix.  The worse case is that I will have to by a new one (it sucks, but I did find some nice computers that I can afford)

Here is the rant of the day:  FOR THOSE WHO MAKE UP VIRUSES AND ATTACK RANDOM COMPUTERS OF PEOPLE YOU DON'T KNOW...WHAT THE HECK!!!  THAT ISN'T COOL AT ALL!  WHAT IS SO FUN FOR DESTROYING SOMEONE'S COMPUTER...YOU DON'T KNOW IF THEY NEED IT FOR WORK AND YOU RUIN THEIR CAREER BECAUSE YOU MESSED UP THEIR COMPUTER.   OR THAT IS THEIR LIFE LINE AND IS THE ONLY WAY TO GET A HOLD OF THEM... THAT ISN'T SHOWING OFF HOW SMART YOU ARE, IT IS SHOWING THAT YOU ARE A JERK!  NOT COOL AT ALL!!!