Honeymoon over?

In the early stages of all relationships, there is a stage were everything is new and exciting. There is a point in the relationship where that stops and everything falls in a rut.  

I'm starting to feel that my relationship has fallen into that rut.  It is very hard to surprise me, but I would love it when it does happen.  I don't know if I feel left out when I see post from friends and co-workers that their boyfriend/husband get flowers or a little gift after visiting their work to drop it off.  It is also very harwhen everyone is married, or is getting married.

I don't know what to do.  I don't what to ask him because I don't want flowers every day, but it would be nice to get a little something every once in awhile.

2012/ End of the world

Tomorrow is suppose to be the end of the world according to the Mayan Calendar.  Do I believe this?  No, I don't.  2012 has been an interesting year; both good and bad.  There is a lot I have learned from other people (Friends, Family, or people I just hate with a undying passion). 

The bad thing that happened this year:

Chris didn't go back to Humboldt because he failed out.  It was his fault, but he did have help from not so great people.  Three a little witches who uses him for his stuff and won't let him focus on school.  Again it is also his fault because he can't be a man and stand up for him self.  A few of his friends from the fencing club were bad mouthing me because apparently I'm the reason why Chris wasn't going back to school.  This lead to another fight and me actually breaking up with him because I told him that I'm sick of that fact he does nothing and let people talk bad about him, and me.  I had to be the one to speak up.  My uncle passed away this year because he was really sick and told no one about it.  My best friend got fired from Wal Mart. I got bit by a mouse...

The good thing that happened this year:

Chris gets to stay here and finish school without the bad influences in his life.  He gets to focus and do well.  The fights that we have made him realize that he needs to grow up and change his ways.  I got my master teacher permit and working on getting my B.S degree in Child Development.  My best friend is not giving up from looking for a new job and is keeping her head high. My uncle is no longer sick.  Chris got rid of the "trash" in his life.

Things I've learned:
-Some people will never be happy unless they can change:
(I use to have this friend that is always depressed and no matter what you do, she'll never be happy.)
- Sometimes something bad must happen, in order to move forward
-Hard work and determination goes a long way
-Not everyone that seems like great people are always great people...
-Never pick up a wild mouse

Choices

Life has many choices, but the problem is that some of us get so blinded by one choice that we forget that there is others.  It is hard to make the right choice because we don't know what will happen.  Today I got a phone call from one of my best friends and she told me that her job fired her.   To be fair the place that she worked at are not the greatest and they fired my brother for the same thing. I was sad for her, but what made me angry is that this so call wonderful friend of her's is living  in New Mexico and told my friend that she can move up there.  I know what some of you maybe thinking what the deal is.... The problem is that this girl told mybfriend about joining the Navy, so this girl doesn't have to do it alone.   This leaves my friend blind to other possibilities that she can do, but won't want to do them.

This chick is bad news and something about her I don't like.   I don't like that she controling my friend because this chick can't do anything on her own.

Word of advice:
Don't rule out other choices for one person that is using you

Blood-sucking parasites (Politics)

I'm glad that the elections are over.  I'm so sick of stupid politicians telling us lies, and some of the supporters (not all, some) posting things on facebook on how this person is an idiot, or how this one is a crook.   I understand that we have that right to share our thoughts and feeling, but I don't agree how disrespectful the others can be.  I almost didn't vote for a president because I don't feel either one was the right man for the job.  I was only going to vote for the props because there I felt I had a voice and making a change.  I did vote for a president, but I'm not saying who. 

The reason why I'm writing this is of something that really ticked me off.  I saw a post saying:

"Obama is president, so the world is going to end...jk..."

That did really bugged me, but what I'm going to tell you next is what bugged me the most...
My brother posted a picture of Big Bird flipping off.  I'm assuming that was a jab at Mitt Romney.  My grandpa comments saying that was immature, and I agree with him.  But the person that posted about the world ending agreed with my grandpa.  That kind of bugged me.  It is okay for you to make a comment like that is also immature, but it isn't okay for someone else to do the same.  I agreed that the picture was out of line, but don't claim someone is being rude when you are doing the same.  It also goes for the other side.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that don't get mad at someones post when you are doing the same.

Word of Advice:
Please keep you political views to yourself...

The Ring

I don't really believe in buying a promise ring.  1) they are pricy and 2) you might as well buy a wedding ring. Spring break 2009, my boyfriend gave me his class ring to promise me that he does love me and that he wants nothing bad to happen in this relationship.  A week later, I gave my class ring to him.  We didn't do it just to show off that we are in a relationship, but it was a nice reminder that we truly care for each other.  It helped while he was up in Humboldt for two years, and we really didn't get to see each other all that often.  It always reminded me of the promise he made to me.  Because his ring is too big for my hand and my ring is too small for his hand that we put it on necklaces.

A long time ago, I saw another  couple that did the same thing.  The reason they did it was because that she wanted to show off her relationship status, and those were her words.  I'm not saying that it is wrong or right, but I don't agree with it.  A few days ago I see that she lost her ring and was bummed. 

I made this post to share why I always wear a a necklace with my boyfriend's class ring on it.  It isn't to show off my relationship status...it is for me to remember why I'm with him and that it means the world to me.

Word of advice....well I guess I don't have one....

Dear Humboldt

Dear Humboldt Fencing Club,

I am sorry that I am not rich, or wonderful like you claim to be.  I'm sorry that I treat people with respect (those who earned it).  I'm sorry that I don't take back what I say because I mean everything I say.  I'm sorry that I don't go out every night to get drunk and sleep around with different people.  I'm sorry that I stand up for myself and my loved ones.  I'm sorry that I choose to be a decent human being than spoil little brats who treat people like crap.

You think you are better than me?  Let us review:
You sleep with almost everyone
I respect my relationship and choose not to cheat
You think you are better than everyone else that don't meet your standers
I treat people with respect until they do something that breaks it
You talk shit about people
I will stand up to you

Just because you are part of a group doesn't mean that your shit doesn't stink.  Just because mommy and daddy paid for your school doesn't mean you have the right to look down on me.  I'm paying my way through school.  I work hard to be where I'm at.  You claim the people that aren't in your inner circle is beneath you, but truth be told that you are lower than scum.

Your's truly


P.S.  Not everyone in the fencing club is like this...and they know who they are

To my love

To my love,

I love you so much
I'm here for you

Give me your sadness
So I can cry with you

Give me your rage
So I can clam you

Give me your hand
So I can help you find your way

The world may be dark
It may be cruel
I will be your friend
I'll walk the road next to you

Give me your Dreams
So I can help make them come true

Give me your friendship
So you'll never be alone

Give me your heart
I promise I will never break it

I'm hear for you
I love you oh so very much